ever wondered how such small matters can be such a big deal to people? i mean, okay i'm the one who was joking around and fitri got insulted for no reason. and now what? 10 people got involved in this? haha. how nosey people can get.

i've been reading on those tag boards that you people use as a form of communication. yes there is nothing wrong with that. but fighting using tagboards? haha. well, not talking about anyone in particular. so, if you think its you, it might not be. unless its guilt that got the better of you.

i guess this matters are better solved as soon as possible without the need of fights, even when it started as that. why bother fighting when nothing is done to make it stop? trouble and more trouble is all that you guys are doing. well, pardon me for saying this, but if i were to give advice to someone who's angry at the moment, i'll expect an angry answer. for me, i've learnt that you need lots of water to put out a big fire. one tiny drop wont do a thing.

and on the point of insulting people. yes i do that too and sometimes i cross the lines. but i dont go around getting back at people who didnt insult me in the first place. if they do nothing, why should i bother with them? and how nosey people can get. i mean, if this fight have nothing to do with you, why bother butting in? unless your butt is big, but still, no reason to do so.

haha. well, i have been wondering to myself about being cool. i mean, being cool is important? haha. if you're cool, so what? want someone to tell you that you're cool? two things that i can infer from that.
1. you have no self confidence and need someone to tell you what you are.
2. you're cool on your own.

whatever it is, being cool is not important. at least not to me. some would go for fame and fortune, thanks but i'd rather be myself. and tell me. is being really sad/ depressed about stuffs that no one knew about is emo? if it is, then where is the freedom of being sad when all you get from it are insults from people saying that you're trying to be emo? and the best thing is, the insults come from someone that barely knows you.


well then. this past few days have been nothing but a drama. and nosey people got involved when they have nothing to do with it. if this post, or any previous ones hurt you in any way, seriously im sorry but i just need an outlet for all these so you guys know what you are doing. not to sound matured in any way. its just that i took some time off to think rather than opening my mouth saying things without solving it, but only to make it worse. i wont say that im matured cos i know maturity isnt something that is self-proclaimed.

yes i know that all you guy's intentions are good, but the world does not belong to you. fights like this happen when two worlds disagree with each other. but the irony is that both are achieving for the same thing. the only problem is that the ways of achieving it is different. sometimes the world wont go like how you want it to be.

i wouldn't want to say more. and like i said, if i did hurt anyone's feelings, do feel free to tag my board and tell me. insults are welcome, only if you know what you're talking about and you know me that well to insult.

cheerios to all

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12:46 AM

okay i edited my blog again. seriously i should do something worth the time rather than just doing up a new blogskin. haha.

i wanna find a job!
need the money. seriously.

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12:21 AM

yesterday

went to causeway point to have early dinner with fitri and walked around the place aimlessly. i'm planning to get a new phone, maybe a samsung or smth. figured that pda phones are just too bulky and kinda useless to a person like me.

the only irritating time of the day when i was in the bus going home from woodlands interchange. the bus was packed with pri sch kids of all shapes and sizes, and they're talking out loud as if their friends are a mile away. there's this kid who had his 'roller' bag on the walkway in the bus and held out his arms from his seat, blocking the path and not allowing others to go pass. i was unlucky enough to be standing right beside his bag. when my foot was between the seat and his bag, he said this to me "excuse me, can you please move you feet aside? my bag might just roll over it". and the worst thing is that he had that oh-im-the-greatest-nerd kinda face.
i was waiting for his turn to alight so i could just block his fat ass and his bag. and i wanted to say "what's your problem f*ck-face?" or smth like "it's not my problem di*k-head" haha. but i didn't say anything. he kinda like shouted "excuse me" into my ears.

ahh irritating pri sch kids. why can't they just sit in the bus and talk quietly and even nicely?


today

went over to johor bahru with my parents. i have no idea what i was doing over there cos i was kinda forced to go. so off we went to Angsana or smth. walked around looking at stuffs. bought some stuffs for hari raya and stuffs like that. kinda boring cos i didnt get to look at stuffs that i actually wanna buy.

anyway i did a new blogskin from scratch. but it ended up looking like fitri's. so i was like, wth i'll do smth different some other time. and for those who's wondering, no i did not rip anything parts of the skin from her. accidentally ended up being like hers.

well then, that's how my past few days are spent. kinda boring if you ask me. till then, cheers!

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10:26 PM

just got news from alvin that Yngwie J. Malmsteen is coming to Singapore!!! i know most of you wont know who the hell he is. but just some stuff about him: a guitar legend and has been playing since he's a kid like maybe around 10 years or smth? cant remember the figure.


it'll be on 9 november 2006 at fort canning (sucky place for a concert, but wth. its outdoors). im gonna have to save up from now. haha.

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10:10 PM

okay first of all, i was just plain lazy to update
secondly, i dont blog when im bored like some others.

anyway i just felt like blogging now after so long since my last update. cant find any reason why.
the past few weeks/days, i have been:

trying to get a job at starbucks
hanging out numerous times with buddies from sec sch
spending money as if everything's free
thinking about my exam results
eat
and sleep


okay so i applied for a job at starbucks and never got a call from them ever since. a friend of my friend's got the job. too bad for me. well, i'll go find other jobs. i need the money and i need to spend my free time usefully and not uselessly like now.

hanging out with the usuals (fitri, shida, stephen, rajiv and june) is a whole lot fun. could there be anything better than hanging out with buddies who have been friends with you for like.. 4-5 years? the things that we talk about seems endless. random stuffs and all the memories during sec sch. well, some jokes are meant to be kept within ourselves.

and hanging out usually end up at starbucks. its just a nice and cozy place with nice smelling coffee and superb environment. we can sit there for hours, maybe even lie down if there's space. and when we're at starbucks, im always tempted to buy java chip frap. and it only has to be grande or venti. tall is just too little for someone who drinks alot. and that usually cost me about $6.50 or $7. and because im not working, that is alot to fork out when my weekly allowance is only $30.

anyway went out recently with alvin, my guitar buddy, to city hall to get screws to replace those on his old guitar which is getter rather rusty. being alvin, he tests at least one guitar at every shop. but hey, im not complaining cos i get to play with the guitars too. haha. we went to swee lee down at bras basah and played the guitar for like what? 15 mins? haha. having fun by ourselves at one corner. and guess what? we took the Joe Satriani signiture guitar worth $1400, JS 100 if im not mistaken. haha. its heavenly i tell you. maybe not to you guys but to me it is. the feel is just right. its perfect for me. haha. i feel like breaking into swee lee and steal it.

an update of myself: i dont do metal and stuffs like that. haha. been there and got over it. i'm going into guitar instrumentals such as those by joe satriani. smooth and slow and soothing.

that's it then. i'll update again when something major happened. i wont touch on my results. haha.

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6:31 PM

Amirudin, but better known as Amir


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